A few confessions

HI guys, So I'm back after realising how long since I blogged my last post. 

I'm so guilty that I have been neglecting my blog for quite some time. 

I wanted to keep this blog alive, and update my day-to-day journal, however, 

it does not comes easy . 

SOOOOO,

TODAY I'm GONNA CONFESS TO SOME OF MY FEELING.

HOW SUCKS I FEEL IN SOME SITUATIONS THAT I FACE IN MY LIFE

Let me know if you can relate yourself to mine!! 

I will gladly want to know and share more to you HAHA.

Some feeling that I can't overcome is that I can't pull myself up when standing with people or talking with people who are strong in the area that I'm weak in. 

My self-esteem will drop like MILLIONS miles of distance. 

I just can't help it. 

and the next thing I realise is that the thing I am weak in gets even WEAKER.

I don't perform well, and I even xiasuey myself by trying so hard and perform so lousily. 

One more thing is that when I'm conversing with a person or a friend, 

and when I get really enthusiastic in talking about my personal story to them or personal thoughts, i will tend to neglect about their thoughts.

Well, I guess most of us may experience this before. 

The conversation will be like: 

' omg you know since young I have been doing this and that, and I feel super cool. do you want to try?? '

' Oh yes sure.. but...' 

' it's ok la, there is no more but, just try ok, it will be superr fun. '

' but I think.. '

' tell you ah, by trying this u will get to learn this or that, I have been doing that since young you know, it's something I will want to share with you, and nobody else but you. if you don't join, you will regret ah! I will send you the details now, go sign up ah!' 

'....' 

People will stop trying to tell me about what they think and I instantly as you can see, neglected her thoughts. 

The very last thing, and is the thing that really haunting me since long ago is that I have a very very bad habit in replying messages. 

I either late reply/forgets to reply or never reply. 

and I really feel that 'last seen' is redundant, 

I don't believe in off-ing last seen to avoid some one. 

As a result, people may think that I have 'last seen' their messages, which I did not do it on purpose. 

I never wanted to late reply anyone, 

but the commitment level is really hard for me to focus on replying message straight after that ..

It's a really bad habit, 

and I have been very guilty in doing this. 

Well, but nobody is PERFECTTTT~ 

it's time to change, but it's also time to accept the fact as well.